Friday, December 2, 2016

Zazen

You both like help.
You: hello
Stranger: Hi there.
Stranger: What's your name?
You: Adam
Stranger: You doing okay, Adam?
You: pretty much
Stranger: Here to help? Or is something on your mind?
You: What do you desire?
Stranger: I could do with some food.
You: mentally desire
Stranger: A new episode of Westworld to watch.
You: ah
Stranger: Yourself?
You: Honor. Something honorable.
Stranger: What are some examples of honour that you admire?
You: In myself?
Stranger: Anywhere.
Stranger: In anyone.
You: Thich
Stranger: Nhat Hanh?
You: born Lam Van Tuc
You: but I suppose most Buddhist monks would due
Stranger: What makes them admirable?
You: sacrifice
You: I higher cause than themselves
Stranger: Do you have a higher cause that inspires you?
You: Perhaps.
You:https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Effective_altruism
Stranger: Yeah, I've read The Most Good You Can Do.
You: That's great.
You: Are you religious?
Stranger: I'm not really, no. Buddhist, if anything.
You: Do you meditate.
You: ?
Stranger: I do, yes.
You: What kind?
Stranger: Zazen.
You: I hear that a lot.
You: I don't want to show my judgment...too much though.
Stranger: Like disapproval?
You: No. More-so lukewarm type acknowledgement.
Stranger: Haha, that's fine.
You: I recommend a course or finding a teacher.
Stranger: A course in what?
You: Meditation.
Stranger: Why is that?
You: It's worth it if you want to continue to meditate.
Stranger: Is there a particular course you'd recommend?
You: Vipassana
Stranger: Ah yep.
Stranger: Well, I've done a 10-day retreat from Goenka's lot.
Stranger: I'm happy with the teacher I have.
You: Do you mean had?
Stranger: No, I mean my current zazen teacher.
You: So you have a teacher?
Stranger: Yes, I attend a zen sitting group regularly.
You: Are groups worth it?
You: I feel as though it's somewhat distracting
You: or a supplement
Stranger: It's a little different. Of course most of your practice is alone. But there is something supportive about sitting as part of a group. There are distractions, of course, but there always are wherever you are.
You: I agree then.
You: What do you do?
You: For work.
Stranger: I do freelance writing, mostly for marketing agencies and companies making websites.
You: Do you have essays that you've written, such as for a blog?
Stranger: Nah, not really. What do you do for work?
You: I'm a green young student, who would like to write...but I have this mental construct of the starving artist...along with not wanting to be forced to write things
You: I wouldn't want to do...naturally on my own
Stranger: Well, yeah, that's the price you pay.
You: But I suppose I'll do that anyway in my future job.
You: anyway
Stranger: But writing to a brief - that is, writing what someone has asked you to write - can be challenging and rewarding.
Stranger: Have you done a Vipassana retreat?
You: Yes
Stranger: 10-day?
You: That's the minimum.
Stranger: How did you find it?
You: Online.
Stranger: Hah, sorry, I mean, what was the experience like for you?
You: Productive
You: useful
Stranger: Man, it was tough for me.
Stranger: I spent the first few days just mentally climbing the wall.
Stranger: walls.
Stranger: I'd just watched a whole season of a TV show before I went.
Stranger: And I relived the whole thing.
You: Ah, ha ha
Stranger: And Goenka mispronouncing "equanimity" drove me mad. Little things.
You: Oh, I didn't know
Stranger: Haha, it's a bit mean. Just his Indian accent.
Stranger: He puts the emphasis on the second syllable instead of the third.
Stranger: And then runs the rest of the syllables together.
Stranger: Petty, but that's what was in my head.
You: Where do you like to live?
Stranger: As in, which counry?
Stranger: country?
You: America, but whichever you'd like.
You: I feel like you are a part of the future "me"
Stranger: I haven't been to America.
You: ah
You: Then in your country.
Stranger: Well, its a small country. I'm in New Zealand.
Stranger: I like living in Auckland, which is the biggest city.
Stranger: But I like travelling around too.
Stranger: There are some beautiful places.
You: Hmmmm
Stranger: Where in the States are you from?
You: Wisconsin
Stranger: And how old are you?
You: 22
Stranger: What are you studying?
You: Electrical engineering is what I struggle with
Stranger: Why is that?
You: It is hard. I have ADD. I have trouble understanding with bad prof, such as those who don't give prior reading
Stranger: Is there support for that?
You: Yes, I get more time on tests.
Stranger: That's all?
You: Um, ya. Quizzes too I gues.
You: s
You: Well, I could have a note taker...but that's not useful.
Stranger: No, it wouldn't be.
Stranger: How about medication for it?
You: I prefer not to. I believe it would negatively alter my cognitive ability in the long run.
You: I did some light research a while back.
Stranger: What did you find?
You: What I just said. Although, it was implicit or not hard evidence. I don't think it could be anyway.
Stranger: On the other hand, you're finding it hard to study right now.
You: Depends.
You: It's hard to study when the professor does not define nor assign homework/practice problems
You: That's the issue right now in my Modern Physics course
Stranger: Are other students having the same problem?
You: For Modern Physics, yes.
You: not ADD related
Stranger: Okay, so there are two problems, and they're compounding.
Stranger: Has anyone talked to the prof about it?
You: He realizing the material he is teaching is very hard. It's solid state physics.
Stranger: What's solid state physics about?
You: semiconductors, phonons (a specialty field in which his research is based), etc
Stranger: Okay, what are phonons?
You: like photons except with sound
You: there's a tech. definition
Stranger: Like little travelling units of sound?
You: not quite
Stranger: What makes them like photons?
You: definition - quantum of lattice oscillations
Stranger: Okay.
Stranger: So phonons are quantum of lattice oscillations through matter?
You: Yes
You: I'm pretty sleepy, do you have skype?
You: to chat another day?
Stranger: Sure. My Skype is max***max
You: thanks, chat with you another time ;)

Monday, October 24, 2016

deep stuff

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger's college: uwplatt.edu
You: know anything deep to talk about?
You: can't really get to that stuff
Stranger: Hmm
You: in a normal conversation
You: you know, "deep" stuff
Stranger: "deep" in what meaning?
Stranger: Like, a stoner saying "woah thats deep man?"
Stranger: In otherwords, I don't know
You: I want to check with an expert source
You: urban dictionary
Stranger: Check what?
Stranger: Deep?
You: concept, abstraction, or theory
Stranger: ?
Stranger: Lost me
You: ya, I lost myself with that definition too!
Stranger: Lol
Stranger: So, what did you mean?
You: Well, I keep reading the definitions on Urban Dictionary
Stranger: Oh no
You: and they're not what I mean
Stranger: Lol
Stranger: So, Urban Dictionary will tell me what you don't mean?
You: Well, I could give examples...but I want you to think up a topic instead of me restricting our discussion to what I know
You: lots of depth, complex.
You: "This book I'm reading is deep."
Stranger: I am willing to discuss whatever you want.
Stranger: Okay
Stranger: Feel free to limit conversation all you wish.
You: lol
You: all right, I'll throw out some choices
Stranger: Okay
You: ethics (how are we Good people? relative to everyone else...relative to most people being just "everyday" good people)
You: future utopian society (what will things be like...probably...maybe)
You: more ethics type stuff, connected to the same topic (Good), but about other things
You: hmmmm, I know there's more deep stuff
Stranger: Lol
Stranger: Hmm
Stranger: First, what is your name?
You: Adam
Stranger: Okay, I am Myles.
You: nice to meet you
Stranger: And you.
Stranger: Hmm
Stranger: Back to picking....
Stranger: Utopian society I think
You: ok, good choice
You: before we go into it tho, do you know
You: what a stream of consciousness is in terms of writing?
Stranger: I do not.
You: free writing
You: that's what it is
Stranger: Okay
You: https://simple.wikipedia.org/wiki/Free_writing
You: feel free to do that
You: I will not mind...I'll actually like that more
Stranger: Okay
Stranger: I can try
You: anyway, what do you think people will do with their free time
You: to ad infinitum
You: technology very advanced
Stranger: Any free time they have decided is unneeded.
Stranger: Hibernation pods to go into statis until something is going on.
You: what?
Stranger: Everything they might need to do in their free time is automated.
Stranger: So, they aren't needed.
You: what do you mean automated?
Stranger: Robots or something similar are taking care of everything.
Stranger: Cleaning the house, doing the cooking, etc.
You: couldn't they create any experience they want though?
Stranger: And they do in the pods.
Stranger: While they sleep/dream.
Stranger: They create any experience they wish.
You: ah
Stranger: Even more freedom than what the technology gives them.
You: there's a Bruce Willis movie about something similar
Stranger: Oh really?
Stranger: As if I knew that XD
You: ya, let me find it...
You: Surrogates (2009)
Stranger: Okay, I will check that out
You: I haven't seen it
Stranger: Darn, only on Netflix DVD.
You: hm? there's always this old of movie available to stream from somewhere online
Stranger: Yea, just not digging right now.
You: I see
Stranger: So, what are your thoughts?
You: I feel like tech would be so advanced to the point where actual physical experiences could be recreated
You: to the human intellect flawlessly
You: so any fictional character (such as a lead character in a movie)
You: could be stepped into
Stranger: Huh
You: but, for people with depression...I think there would be a higher chance of suicide
Stranger: Probably
You: then again, you see Hot Tub Time Machine II?
Stranger: I have not.
You: the youngest character tries to commit suicide, but there's like some hinky forcefield that catches him unexpectedly
Stranger: Huh
You: why do you think they're might probably be more depression suicides?
Stranger: Because of the contrast between how they seen their lives and how life really is.
You: Life would be almost anything they would want it to be though.
Stranger: It has been nice talking, but I got to go.
You: adios
You have disconnected.

Friday, October 21, 2016

alone

You: I just want people to find a cause
You: something to stand for
Stranger: i see
You: just not for themselves
You: there is so much we can do to improve the world
Stranger: thats true
Stranger: im just not so sure
Stranger: we have the obligation to do so
You: well, there I'm getting specific
Stranger: idk my view on things is that its always nice to help those in need but people shouldn't be forced into helping
You: you are correct, I will agree that we do not have a moral obligation for any cause
You: (but honestly, I don't care. Standing for anything is OK!)
Stranger: ahhahaha
You: ya, no pressure
You: I suppose your feedback that I'm getting is to how I can make such questions for any cause
You: http://www.globalissues.org/
Stranger: hmm
You: I mean, I can't even get those close to me to stand for something!
Stranger: haahahah
Stranger: are u that frustrated about the society's apathy
Stranger: coz in general people just dont care about anything but themselves
Stranger: i dont think theres much we can do about that
You: it's hard being alone...
Stranger: aw
You: online I'm not, but that's not the kind of alone I mean
Stranger: so u feel lonely
Stranger: me too actually
Stranger: not sure if its the same kind of loneliness though
You: not really "lonely" just alone
Stranger: oh
Stranger: i see
Stranger: how so
Stranger: u feel like youre the only one who gives a damn
Stranger: ?

Tuesday, October 18, 2016

accepting mediocrity

You: what are you thinking about?
Stranger: i was just thinking about how close can people get
Stranger: accept someone the way one's accepts himself
Stranger: and you?
You: that I did not study section 2.5 good enough yet
Stranger: what are you studying?
You: differential equations
You: I suppose I don't accept most people for who they are
You: not even me

Saturday, October 15, 2016

direct actions, squats, rallies, election campaigns "practical stuff"

You both like activism.
Stranger: you do activism?
You: I suppose
You: Do you?
Stranger: not much atm, i used to
You: which?
Stranger: uh, well, mainly climate stuff, anti-capitalist, feminism...
Stranger: what do you do?
You: lessen extreme poverty
You: I'm a feminist though in a light sense of the term
Stranger: ah, right :)
You: I may be anti-capitalist
You: Thomas Pogge
Stranger: it's a pretty broad term
You: haven't read too much about what he's saying these days though
You: true that
You: although, climate change...I haven't done anything for that
Stranger: what exactly do you mean by lessen extreme poverty, like, rallys, soup kitchens?
You: I live in the US. There is very little extreme poverty--none that I can touch anyway.
You: (here)
You: Just a sec...
You: So, like I was saying, poverty can be divided into two main camps:
You: extreme (e.g., non-US) and relative (e.g., US)
Stranger: so you mainly do things abroad, or?
You: no, that's too costly
You: I give to foreign things, Kiva (miro-loans) or GiveDirectly
You: if you look up Effective Altruism
You: you'll get where I'm coming from
Stranger: right
Stranger: it all sounds super academic compared to what I did
Stranger: I did more direct actions, squats, rallies, election campaigns
Stranger: you know, all the practical stuff :)
You: GiveDirectly is actually more practical
You: the term you mean is "visible"

He knows her slightly more than usual

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
Stranger's college: northsouth.edu
Stranger: hi
You: hi
You: something my friend said when he was about 19 at a social gathering:
You: He had been rooting (Aussie slang for fucking) this young lady for a couple of months on and off and at this event he happened upon said young lady and her mother who he knew too. The mother wasn't sure if he knew her daughter.

She said, have you met my daughter and he said, "I believe that's a face I have cum across before"
Stranger: lol
You: =)
You: Completely truthful and quite naughty but the mother had no idea he meant it literally
Stranger: what do you do for a living?
You: I'm a student
Stranger: comedian?
Stranger: you should be a comedian
You: I'm not Australian--I copied that from a question and answer website ;)
Stranger: haha nice, which one?
You: Quora: What's the most truthful statement you said that was quite inappropriate?
Stranger: oh quora
Stranger: it's good
You: fuck ya it's good
You: questions define and give meaning to our lives
You: answers are the spice of it all (spice of life if you will)
Stranger: hmm quite the philosopher
You: ha, to non-philosophers philosophy appears contained
You: not related to everyday interaction and existance
You: but I'm not here to convince you ;)
You: well, I should go. You know, waste more time on living a meaningful life :....J